未来是什么呢？
既看不到也摸不著
在伸手不见五指的迷雾下
该前进？还是该后退？
思念的形状是什么样？
是否真的是环绕着？
但是我能肯定
思念很沉重……….
情绪的压抑
已然重到不能再重
曾经看过这么一句话
“当压抑过久的时候
就不需要在压抑了”
因为那时候的情绪早已崩溃
比较起来这是一种幸运
至少不用继续压抑
所以
我还不够幸运
今天去看了两次医生
一次照了胃镜
搞不清楚是胃还是十二指肠溃疡
还有食道逆流
一次是找医生开安眠药
这阵子药物已经快变成一种依赖
本来好了不少的毛病
看样子开始慢慢再复发
真的好想
放下所有的心情
就此消失
这样
就不会在CARE什么了
水瓶双鱼
水瓶的平静下藏着许多的情绪
双鱼的情绪只是率性而为
交错复杂的思绪
好沉重……………..
试着听听琳恩玛莲的“Disguise”吧
这首歌江美琪也有翻唱过
不过还是原唱的版本比较有那种味道
就让自己在音乐中暂时把所有的情绪都给忘记吧
把思念丢到远远的地方去
我想
我该努力把这种不需要的情绪给抛弃了
麻木一点的过生活或许会比较好
也许…………….
从今天开始
把所有都忘记了吧
除了呼吸以及生活
什么都不需要
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Lene Marlin - Disguise Have you ever felt some kind of emptiness inside You will never measure up, to those people you Must be strong, can't show them that you're weak Have you ever told someone something That's far from the truth Let them know that you're okay Just to make them stop All the wondering, and questions they may have I'm okay, I really am now Just needed some time, to figure things out Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you Still we don't know what's yet to come Have you ever seen your face, In a mirror there's a smile But inside you're just a mess, You feel far from good Need to hide, 'cos they'd never understand Have you ever had this wish, of being Somewhere else To let go of your disguise, all your worries too And from that moment, then you see things clear I'm okay, I really am now Just needed some time, to figure things out Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you Still we don't know what's yet to come Are you waiting for the day When your pain will disappear When you know that it's not true What they say about you You could not care less about the things Surrounding you Ignoring all the voices from the walls I'm okay, I really am now Just needed some time, to figure things out Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you Still we don't know what's yet to come I'm okay, I really am now Just needed some time, to figure things out Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you Still we don't know what's yet to come Still we don't know what's yet to come Still we don't know what's yet to come